Realization

Tonight I came to a realzation: There are 31 days left to complete my college career. I find it absolutally astonishing! Seems like yesterday I walked into my first college class as a Senior in high school back in 2005 completely paranoid and freaked out by the fact I was actually taking COLLEGE classes. Here I am almost 6 years later about to graduate with a bachelor's degree in English. I think the hard part will officially begin now. Finding that job, moving all my belongings, forcing myself and Murphy to get use to a new environment, getting use to a new job, managing my bills on my salary alone and going on with my life. I am struggling just trying to finish seminar up and manage it with the last projects of my other semester classes. It will be a huge relief to be able to print out my completed seminar and walk it to my instructor's office and turn it in. Even after my 7 minute presenation on my subject is over with, I will feel even more relieved. Tonight I simply cannot get myself to focus on the subject. Tomorrow will hopefully be a more productive day in the steps to completing it. My goal tomorrow is to go through and edit what I already have done (if I do not decide to completely rewrite the whole thing out of frustration) insert more sources where I need them to help explain my points, and also to complete some more pages for it. Over the weekend I plan on bushing up on the actual novel and finding more ideas to help me complete my research. I never thought I could write a 20-25 page paper in my life. Right now I am trying to figure out how I am going to condense it to simply 20-25 pages. I haven't even begun to analyze the second main character in my research and I have over 10 pages now. I think it is time to go relax and snuggle up with the kitty. I was at Jay's all weekend and Murphy has missed me since I left. He has kept a close eye on me since I came home, and even when I come back home from being away for a few hours at work or school he continues to keep close just in case I sneak off away from him again. I do not know what he is going to do when we move into our own place. I have a strong feeling it will be a long process in introducing him to a new home. He has been at my parents' since he was almost three months old. He has established a routine here and has his comfort zones. I hope he surprises me and adjusts well to the new changes that are to come in the future.